So while I haven’t been particularly busy here on my personal blog, over on my Mode blog, I have been very busy researching and writing new stories. I’ve only had the blog for 4 weeks and I’m still finding my feet but the passion and interest of finding new things to talk about and share hasn’t diminished like my activity here on WordPress. By the way, I’m enjoying the new job so far, I’m learning day by day and I feel like I’m taking a step in the right direction in terms of sorting a career out for myself. This whole process for me is still in the infancy stage but everyone has to start from somewhere and something I’ve learned since starting my internship is that the people who have made it to the top have all had to work hard for a number of a years. The success they’ve gathered did not land at their feet so that is something that is encouraging me to continue working on me. People change, people move on, people move onto bigger and better things while others are stagnated, trying to stop others from succeeding just to make themselves feel better so I know I have to worry about myself and being the best I can before worrying about the problems of people I have no business in meddling in.
Anyways, my posts on Mode are steadily getting more views, the more posts I do, the better I get as a writer and pushing myself out of my comfort zones will only be a positive thing for me. Not only am I learning from the job, I’m learning from myself, I’m learning more about myself, who I am, what my goals are, the things I want to achieve. I’m ambitious, I want to do great things and reach heights I would never think I would ever reach but I am also a realist, experiences from my past have taught me never to get my hopes up too high because people will let you down, whether they mean it or not. Adventure, wanderlust, discovery, these are all things enveloping my mind strongly, my mind warped by the eccentricities out in the world. I want to experience as much as I can before I get to a point where I can’t experience any more. I don’t want any regrets, I hate regrets, in fact, I despise them so the best way to combat this naturally is to go through experience and lot of it.
The world is a enormous blank canvas, waiting for you to draw, scribble, sketch, mark out, paint, stain, whatever on it. I intend to do just this, I’m still young, more young than I think, the majority of people I’ve been around over the last few years have been older than me and whilst they’re rushing to complete their Plan A’s as soon as possible, here I am putting my Plan A aside and working on a Plan B, hoping to either go back to Plan A when the time is right or turn the Plan B into the Plan A, a Plan A 2.0 you could say. I remember a post I put up on Instagram saying “What does life have in place for me? I’ll leave it to God.”, that is exactly how I want to live my life, not pre-occupied about the dangers that lurk in this world, not worried about things that ultimately don’t really matter, I just want to have fun, to enjoy myself, to work and be grateful for the position I find myself in.
“Ever Tried. Ever Failed. No Matter. Try Again. Fail Again. Fail Better.”
These are the words of wisdom from writer, Samuel Beckett. This quote has quickly become a motto in life for me to follow. I’ve mentioned this quote a few times in previous posts and I do so again because it’s a bloody good quote! Failure is something everyone has to deal with but don’t let it consume you as a person, simply brush yourself down, get up from the ground and try again and when you find success, you find failure in equal fortitude because the sweet success of a one day will be the bitter failure on another day.
Enough of my inspired rant, go and see my posts so far on Mode.